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maybe promises are meant to be broken.
i miss you aida !
- Mood:
sick
can we have that moment that we told each other the truth about ourself like we had at clarke quay?
i can't stay on wondering what's your feelings for me now. I'm curious. you don't give me any sign or tell me how you feel. please don't keep any feelings from me anymore. tell me the truth. if it's good or bad i'll take it. i just want to know thats all. i try to ignore this curiosity,but it seems so hard. i just want things to be like the holidays where we were close to each other. now we don't even talk much on the phone. most of the time keeping quite. why does all that happened after new year?
ryanlovesaidaalot:(
ryanlovesaidaalot:(
- Mood: sick
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.
So both of us are mad for...
Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...
I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...
And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).
Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.
So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...
Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...
I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...
Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everything allright between us
Before we go to sleep.
Baby, we're gonna be happy.
I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...
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this song makes me reminisced of the fighting that we had together.have you ever notice that we fight for nothing. if i would just forgive and forget about your mistakes we won't be apart right now. all the shouting and fighting are just our past memories. if you would forgive me for all the things i've said and done to you, it's much appreciated. i'm really sorry friend.
this is what i get for hurting someone over and over again.
- Mood:
guilty
forget it,i can't even get things straight in my life.wanting to have a gf but not ready to face the world.im a typical fool that just don't stop dreaming.since i'm leaving soon let me tell you something , i just want your love thats all. sorry if i've been giving you problems over problems in your life. call me jerk cause i was once.
i seriously want to say that im fuck up now and had enough with everything.
seriously do you still love me ?
if you don't tell me cause i want to know.
we're not that close now.and im sure you notice it.
i cant tell you cause it seems like everytime is not the right time.
so i guess my lj is where i can let you know what im feeling.
i know now i'm hanging out with a different clique.
and things may change abit.but i always have time for you.
you don't realize that i miss going out with you.
its ok.things have happened.
if you like the way your life is now than don't bother
changing it.thanks for making me feel happy for the
past 2 months.
if you don't tell me cause i want to know.
we're not that close now.and im sure you notice it.
i cant tell you cause it seems like everytime is not the right time.
so i guess my lj is where i can let you know what im feeling.
i know now i'm hanging out with a different clique.
and things may change abit.but i always have time for you.
you don't realize that i miss going out with you.
its ok.things have happened.
if you like the way your life is now than don't bother
changing it.thanks for making me feel happy for the
past 2 months.
maybe we're not meant for each other.
ryanis ....
- Mood:
sad
secondly i'm having a sore throat . i think is the cause of smoking.i hate when people are right. but ya, when you guys are right it's good for me.thanks people.im sick with work and not in the mood to continue working.with the position i'm getting by my manager i see no point continuing. and my pay really pissed me off.seriously working in such long hours and getting only a day pay is fking annoying.the reason getting a day pay is because my manager didn't know when i work. what's the point of being a manger when you don't even know anything. dumb-ass. it's ok im quitting soon after the meeting.(i hope) i'll see if i still stay on as a crew member i'll quite if not i'll stay.monday going to school meeting rezal for some appealing to sec 5 . seriously i do not know where to go.i feel that going ITE is a easier way but sec 5 is a better choice.hais. god help me. im stuck in the middle. hopefully everything turns out well on monday.
i can't wait for End Of Year . i've been planning alot for the count down . Aida please go out with me on 31 Dec ? i really wanna spent the new year with you. :) hope this new year will be a new beginning for me . leave my past behind and start a fresh.
ryanisalwayscocky.
:)
- Mood: sick
AIDA IS THE BEST IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD ! :)
- Mood:
happy
[Speaking:]
Baby, I'm just gonna be real right now
I know what you're going through
I've been through it before
I'm here for you, listen
Girl I know the pain you feel
I felt the same way too
Over time your heart will heal
I promise this to you
Girl I've waited way too long to tell you this I'm so in love with you
All I can do is hope that u feel the same way too
[Chorus:]
Girl I could fall back in love with you (girl I could fall back in love with you)
Over, over and over and over again (over and over again)
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Ohh girl
Your broken heart
Yeah
Girl I heard the things he said
It wasn't meant for you (nah)
Girl I saw the tears you shed
I know what you've been through
Girl I fell in love again the moment that I laid my eyes on u
All I can do is hope that u feel the same way too
[Chorus:]
Girl I could fall back in love with you (girl I could fall back in love with you)
Over, over and over and over again (over and over again)
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Girl I see the questions in your eyes
I know it's hard to trust I'm not that guy
I'm the answer to your prayers
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Ohh girl
Baby, I'm just gonna be real right now
I know what you're going through
I've been through it before
I'm here for you, listen
Girl I know the pain you feel
I felt the same way too
Over time your heart will heal
I promise this to you
Girl I've waited way too long to tell you this I'm so in love with you
All I can do is hope that u feel the same way too
[Chorus:]
Girl I could fall back in love with you (girl I could fall back in love with you)
Over, over and over and over again (over and over again)
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Ohh girl
Your broken heart
Yeah
Girl I heard the things he said
It wasn't meant for you (nah)
Girl I saw the tears you shed
I know what you've been through
Girl I fell in love again the moment that I laid my eyes on u
All I can do is hope that u feel the same way too
[Chorus:]
Girl I could fall back in love with you (girl I could fall back in love with you)
Over, over and over and over again (over and over again)
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Girl I see the questions in your eyes
I know it's hard to trust I'm not that guy
I'm the answer to your prayers
Your broken heart can lead to you and me
Together, forever for better or worse baby trust when I say
I'll heal your broken heart
Ohh girl
Your broken heart
why is it so hard to be in love. i guess if things doesn't turn the way i want i'll just leave and not turn back.i rather hurt myself and not hurt the people who love me.sorry but i can't bare to hurt anyone.i'll take my leave if it's time for me.
- Mood: sad
- Music:fall for you-Secondhand Serenade
To My Lovergirl,
first i wanna say im sorry to aida.i know you are angry with me for not telling you the truth.im really sorry.its my fault.i should have told you the truth before you found out yourself.it hurts me to lie to you.sorry.please dont have a bad impression towards me.seriously i didn't wanna used anyone's money but in desperate needs i have to.and it's for sure i won't used your money cause i don't like it.but thanks for wanting to help.i hope in the future all this won't happened again.lastly , i'm really SORRY !
ok,yesterday didn't turn out as planned.first,it rains heavily and we had to delay in starting the fire.i was shivering like a small kid.than the tent was wet inside.my psp and some other things was soak in the water.lucky my psp is not spoile or else i have nothing to live in this boring life .hahaha.jokes.something bad happened to me that can cause me life and death.i almost drowned.and not only that.with that experience im now scared to go in the water alone.it all starts when we were playing true or dare.than a ball that aida was holding float up and flow towards the deep area.at that point of time the sea bed wasn't deep,i can still stand.suddenly the sea bed slide down and i felt a hand pulling my ankle.at first i thought it was salim but for a sec why is he holding my leg?than i realize that it was something else.i couldn't swim to shore.i didn't see anyone or hear people talking.i thought i was dead,but luckily salim pull my hand.and than the hand that was pulling me let me go.till now im still scared.it change my mindset of life.cherish it before its too late.and after all that i kept on thinking about my mother.if i were to die in such situation what will happened to her ..
ok,yesterday didn't turn out as planned.first,it rains heavily and we had to delay in starting the fire.i was shivering like a small kid.than the tent was wet inside.my psp and some other things was soak in the water.lucky my psp is not spoile or else i have nothing to live in this boring life .hahaha.jokes.something bad happened to me that can cause me life and death.i almost drowned.and not only that.with that experience im now scared to go in the water alone.it all starts when we were playing true or dare.than a ball that aida was holding float up and flow towards the deep area.at that point of time the sea bed wasn't deep,i can still stand.suddenly the sea bed slide down and i felt a hand pulling my ankle.at first i thought it was salim but for a sec why is he holding my leg?than i realize that it was something else.i couldn't swim to shore.i didn't see anyone or hear people talking.i thought i was dead,but luckily salim pull my hand.and than the hand that was pulling me let me go.till now im still scared.it change my mindset of life.cherish it before its too late.and after all that i kept on thinking about my mother.if i were to die in such situation what will happened to her ..
ryanis ...
- Mood:
scared
